stayed back and had a talk with jeslyn..
poor gal..HUGGS!!
pl is here for you!!

had a horrible day today..
i dunno how to explain..
i can nv get the courage to bring up anything..
no matter how sad i am..
wad for doing so..
when the replies will be always wad you dun wanna hear..
and you can nv get her attention..
wadever this is..
i will just have to tolerate for another 5 weeks..
and i hope everything will be fine..
i guess..

thanks partner for being with me all the time..
you had always seen my sadiest moments and comfort me..
i dun understand why you are so strong..
hahahaha!! crazy me!!!
alright..
gotta start my engine now..
my targets for Os:
el-pass
emaths-A1
amaths-A2/1
physic-FULL MARKS!!(so crazy but i wanna try)
chem-A1
ss-b3
geography-A2
lit-c5

yep!!
hope i can meet my targets!!
y dun you understand me??
nvm.nobody do anyway.

6:48 PM

alright..
this is all happening AGAIN!
didnt i just try to put down my pride and talk to you..
did i just try to make you feel wanted?
did i just try to make you dobetter in your friendship..
y dun you try to feel something for me??
dun you feel that i lack insecuity??
i try so hard to get things right..
but do you even BOTHER?
i tried talking to you so many times..
but wad happened the following day??
it just all comes back to square one..
wad the hell!!
i am not going to care anymore..
i have my own limits..
and you are meeting my limits..
i nv even hold grudge against you..
i try to change for your sake
and wad did you do??
trying to say something is between us??
YES.
all thanks to you..
THERE IS SOMETHING BETWEEN US..
i dunno wad to say..
but i did my best..
i cant do more..
i am too exhausted to bother you anymore..
i just wish you the best in everything you do..
and HOPE that you under wad i mean..

and you..
WAD IS WRONG WITH YOU?!
there is NOTHING BETWEEN ME AND YOU..
y must you always be so sensitive??
it just makes me feel more distance from you..
every word i say must not be hurting..
i tried..
i really tried..
but all this doesnt seem to work AT ALL..
i dunno wad to say now..
there is just nothing between us..
haiz.

wadever is done is done..
i dun wanna make everyone feel so awkward..
that y i am not saying anything..
just let it rest pls..
we onli have 5and a half weeks left..

5:36 AM

woke up at 9 today..
planned to wake up at 8 to study..
but..tsk tsk!!
cannot make it la!!
did some reading..
and got myself changed
headed to the mrt station to meet bel and roti=)

met evon on the train..
and took a 45mins train ride to jurong east..
had lunch with them!
me and tanny went to get our mocha ice cream..
i asked tanny to add my points to my ezlink card..
and DUN SHOW MY FACE TO THAT LADY..
but she went to put MY FACE INFRONT OF THAT LADY!!
we laughed until i almost died!!
and we just happily went off busy attending to our ice creamWITHOUT paying!!
SO DUMB!!!!
hahahahahah!!
laughed our way back!!!

ice skated with the class..
POOR BUDDY!!!
she had a hard time learning it!!!
falling so many times..
having a big blue black on her knee and her hand!!
GET WELL SOON BUDDY!!

THANKZ BEL!!
WE ROCK MANX!!
we are called the ICE SKATERS!!
but there was this irritating guy..
he just wanted to show off his stupid skills in front of US
making me and bel fall TWICE!
IRRITATING!!!!!!
got so pissed off with him!!

but other than that..it was fine la!!!
hahahaha!!!!
we then headed down to meet the rest of our classmates..
and had STEAMBOAT FOR DINNER!!
mr low jessie partner and janice was LATE!!
it was so so filling!!!
in the end..
we had this number game..
in order to finish our food..
we had the food dipped into the chilli sauce cum coke cum tomyum soup cum chicken soup!!
but janice was our sole survivor!!
mr low then volunteer to fetch us home..
haha!!
so partner yinyee tanny janice and i headed home in his car..
we got so cranky that when we burst out laughing..
the WHOLE car shook!!!
i think his car is going to break down soon!!
hahah!!
alright..
so here i am..
in my cosy room!!
exhausted but SUPER HAPPY!!!!
going to bed!!
GOODNITEY!!
TAKE CARE=)

7:22 AM

got up SO EARLY this morning!!
just because my sis said she wanted something SPECIAL!
but it was like raining in the morning!
such a ideal environment to sleep!!
THANKZ JIE!!
ended up eating in potong pasir...
the place there didnt even change or smt?!
its like..still in the 1990s..
everything was EXACTLY the same!!
haha!! coool manx!
but i wasnt used to it!
went to the market with my mummy..
got some vegetable and off home back to the modern world!
now..i am both tired and dirty!
needta study my science!
hope prelim result will go fine..
and we will have fun AFTER PRELIMS!
tues:date with tingmei..
wed: date with clique
thurs:date with buddy
fri:date with SINGTELLER(PL) and BUDDY
sat:escape with the clique..
WOW!!
so excited!
need a beak you see!
alright!
i am going back to sleep!!
take care!!

7:39 PM

THE FIERCEST GIRL had asked me to update!!
so here i am!
MANY MANY things happened so far..
prelims are kind of over..
left MCQ=)
not starting to study YET=p
think i will have to help SA swept the floor for FIRST THREE MONTHS..
prelim papers was like SO TOUGH!!
i think i am going to get 100 points manx!
didnt really mug hard for prelims..
ALL THE BEST WEIJING!!
hahaha!!
EVON DID STUPID STUFF!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
i am nice to KEEP IT A SECRET=)

went to psr park YESTERDAY!!
with partner bel and vivian!!
HAD LOTS OF FUN!!!
kept drinking the ice blended drink!!
and partner just kept screaming when we were climbing the spider web!
haha!! SCARDY PARTNER!!!
I LOVE THE BEACH!!!

"studied" in partner's club today!!
hahahahaha!!!
von delia tingmei( the fiercest girl on earth) came along too!!
I LOVE PARTNER's NEW PHONE!!
and i drew nicer than EVON's!!!
haha!!
we had lunch with pris and lizard..
I AM SO GOING TO TRY THE MILO DINOSAUR THE NEXT TIME!!
ting mei left for tuition
evon and delia left for church
partner and i headed back to her club!
we were so bored that we started playing with the balloons!
and kept SCREAMING!
then we saw the the sign board:
1.no phone conversation....
2................
3....................
4..............
5. PLEASE REMAIN SILENCE AT ALL TIME!!!
WTH!!!
HAHAAHAHHAAH!!
laugh until i wanna die..
then we went to the tv room to watch zhen qing=)
and went to have our oreo "drink"
daddy came to fetch
and off to shop with my mum!!

i realized that i grew so much that i am wearing L SIZE stuff NOW!!!!
I MUST GO ON A DIET!!!
MOTTO to now: have SELECTIVE EATING and EXERCISE FOREVER!!!
hahahahahha!!
talking to jeslyn NOW!
SHE IS CRAZY!!
WE ARE LIKE TALKING IN CAPS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I DUNNO Y!?!
hahah..
yep!!
so i basically had a great time..
but had quite a bad time..hahah!!
SO IRONIC!!
thankz partner for being there for me..
I LOVE YOU PARTNER!!
huggs!!
and the FUNNIEST BUDDY!!!
doing crazy stuff for me EVERYDAY!!!

alright..shall end here!!
TAKECARE!!!

7:52 AM