manx...
ya..ya..ya..
i am just lying to myself that i dun care..
i do!!!
i am just trying to say i forget everything...
haiz...
wad is this manx..
is it really very happy???
did my life really go back???
or am i still stuck there???
manx...
i didn leave you..
you left me..
taking away the light...
now i am just in darkness..

and from myself to someone else...
just forgive and forget..
ya...
i shall not be against you anymore..
just wanna be free from all the unhappy stuff...

3:46 AM

when to cut hair today..
quite nice..
took neos with yuqi jan and von
haha...
they are just so funny..
and jan's hair haha...really very funny...
her hair just cannot stand la..
haha..no matter put how much wax..
haha=)
tanny wore wig to class today!!
i like love to wear her one...
haha..tanny is really cute in that wig..
haha...manx!!
manx!!
haha...laughting the whole lesson with arathi and sandra!!
haha
alright ms chin is leaving
and we are throwing a farewell party for her!!
everyone be there ya??!!
alright shall end here!!
take care!!
2c1 2003 rox!!-cant wait for the chalet!!-

3:41 AM

forgot something yesterday...
haha..
von stole me kuji and ATE IT!!
was so depressed that day!!
hahahahaha!!!
manx...
got something to ask you...
"cant i go with you later??" -act pityful-
hahahahaha!!!
manx!!!
shall get lost now...
haha...
2c1 2003 rox!!
pongpingerx rox too!!

1:34 AM

hey!!!!
manx!!
back from kl!!!
its super duper fun!!!!
manx...
really can see that our team is united!!!
manx...
we stay up late play and watch soccer!!
manx!!
bought so many thing...
esp food!!
for the parties we had!!
manx!!!
haha...
we got so scared when they told us that we are playing against..
malaysia's very good players!!!
manx..
but althought they are good we manage to win them!!!
haha...
then we spotted a "bung" haha...
mic and audrey like like her so much!!
but she is cute la...
haha...
then we so called interact with them and played the number game!!
haha..
that was the bestest...
haha...in the end we are like eat until so full!!
haha...
shopping was so fun too!!
we did the had counting so that we are all together...
haha...
then head counting was the best!!
and ying xiu always forget to call her number!!
5 here!!! -wave wave-
haha...
bought quite alot but havd to force myself to stop buying..
cause getting broke soon...
haha...
dinner was nice too!!!
manx!!
had to much fun time together!!
manx!!
then yesterday night when we were like playing games
we suddenly hear someone trying to open our door...
12 of us were so scared!!!
we off all the lights...haha but in the end nothing la...
think too much le..
haha...
watched soccer!!
france lost!!!
england lost too!!!
ah!!
it isnt fair!!
haha...
having flu now...
haha...hace there wad...
having sore throat now!!
then having fever too!!
manx!!
i am so sick!!!
haha...but is ok la..
haha
manx!!
just love this three day...
thinking about the time we spent together..
laught like crazy!!
haha...
so super fun!!!
love it manx!!
wish that we will stay united!!
haha...
lots of fun things happened..
but too long le!!
haha...alright shall end it off now!!
take care everyone...
see ya when school reopens!!!
haha
alright!!
2c1 2003 rox!!
and tt team rox too!!!!

3:48 AM

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And she's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky she's cursed
When it come to loving me she's the worst
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky she's cursed
When it come to loving me she's the worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
'cause if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
When it come to being lucky she's cursed
When it come to loving me she's the worst

sheryl crow

4:02 AM

leaving singapore for good...
left singapore for good..
ah!! get out!!
get out of my mind!!!

3:34 AM

utterly disappointed....

9:08 PM

for the past few long days..
i have been thinking alot..
do you actually hurt me that much??
haiz
do i ever hurt you??
manx...
am i really too much??
i think i am...
haiz...
very sorry...
i am here to apolgise to you...
sorry gal..
i just kept hurting you gal...
sorry...
very sorry...
haiz...
take care...
2c1 2003 rox!!

6:29 PM

weijing...jing jing..and jing
is dead...
she died on the 17 june..
616 21second in the evening.
she commited suicide..
she didn leave a note or something..
but onli say that she is very tired of every thing
ya...
alright...
shall get out now.
wont be here for a long long time...

2:50 AM

hey...
manx...
alright...
actually blogged yesterday...
but had some problem..
manx..
nvm..
went town with von,jan,eunice,micZHONG on tues...
had fun...haha...
erm...
ya...haiz...
manx..went airport yesterday morning...
went there to send zina...
then she so tiao lor!!
just say: thankz alot...
WA!!
i was late!!
called mic LEE...
she said: are you all coming not??
i am here feeding mosquitoes leh...
WA!! haha...so funny!!
then i kept laughing...
cannot stop..
the man in front thought i was crazy!!
then had lunch there..SO FULL!!
then met jan...went to school...
was late for training..manx...
training was quite fun...
cause its raining!!
and most of just are wet...haha!!
left training early..
cause need to do my passport..
haha...
woke up early this morning...
eyes are so swallow again...AHH!!
thankz nellie for sending me that song!!
going out together with von jan micLEE tq ok??=)
haha..
and also STEAD!!!
ya!!
manx..alright..
later having amaths lesson...
haha...my sister is like keep going out
and i stuck at home..
not allow to go out...
haiz..WAD IS THIS MANX!!
alright...shall stop right here!!
haha..
take care everyone!!
STEAD ROX!!!
2c1 2003 ROX!!!

8:01 PM

To you:
i was thinking...
do you ever think...
by doing this will be best for me??
will it ever stop hurting me??
maybe it is best for you...
you dun wanna msg me..
thinking you will hurt me..
but will "how are you?" hurt me??
come on manx...
do you ever think how i will feel if you made this decision??
by doing this will it hurt me even more??
haiz...
it may end your miserable life..
but thankz..
you just started a MORE miserable life for me...
maybe you could easily move on...
but i dun think i can..
but now i know wad is
true love..
i know wad is
sacrifies..
i know wad is
being jealous of someone...
i know wad is
care and concern...
i know wad is
understanding someone...
i know wad is
waiting...hurting...letting go..
and i really know wad is
loving someone wholeheartedly...
really tired..
cannot take it...
anymore...
haiz..
just sigh...
From the stupidest gal on earth who loves you so much

7:54 PM

hey...
today was really a rushy day...
hehe..
first was after amaths lesson..
then we rush to town to catch shrek 2...
haha...
then its like went ps
sold out...
when orchard..
sold out!!
but in the end managed to watch...
at 5...
manx...
it rox lor!!
haha...
the baby donkey SO CUTE!!!!!
manx!! love it manx!!
haha...
the cat very act cute!!!
but very CUTE!!
haha..
was very late then went home..
me jennifer and jan were like rushing..
esp me!!
ah!!
papa was to angry!!
cause i nv call him..
manx..
thought he knew...
but not...
haha...=)
but came home...
dun feel like eating..
so eat abit then went to bathe...
then do my stuff..
haha...ok la..
today was so rushy!!
so so tired!!
haha..
tml got amaths lessons AGAIN!!!
haha...
think going town AGAIN!!!
haha...
manx...
talked to tq during amaths lesson...
thankz alot for the advises..
but i think its not time yet...
haiz...really sorry dear!!
haha...=)
alright...
very tired le...
haiz..

think this feeling is much much more painful then you hurting me..
haiz.
tired.
exhausted.
confused.
but onli something i knew is clear..
i found out that i really love you alot..
haiz..but who will ever care whether i love you so much??
haiz.

To you:
my dreams came true
when i found you...
:From the stupid me

alright shall end here..
take care every one!!
2c1 2003 rox!!!

7:30 AM

hey...
woah...
today's tuition was so tiring!!
she gave me so so so much homework!!
manx!!
tml tq gonna talk to me!!
very long nv talk to her le!!
manx!!
she is the person you really can talk to!!
alright..
tml got a maths lesson...
sorry jan..really...
didn know y i have done this...
sorry...
but no matter wad...
i nv hate you ok??
sorry...
alright...
going out for lunch tml..
manx!!
alright...
so sian..
today was fine...
watched tv and got scolded by papa..
manx...
bathed too long and got scolded twice...
haha...manx...
think going out on tues!!
yay!!
get out!!
haha...alright...
wanna listen to angels brought me here now...
haha...
so nice!!
i love it so so much!!
but onli know how to sing ABIT...
hahaha=)
alright...very tired!!
JAN I AM REALLY VERY SORRY!!
I KNOW THIS FEWS DAY I AM VERY BAD TO YOU!!
GIVE ME TIME OK??
THERE IS TOO MANY THINGS ON MY MIND!!
BUT REALLY VERY SORRY!!
haiz...manx..
alright...
shall stop right here...haha
take care every body!!
2c1 2003 ROX!!

7:15 AM

back from tuition...
haiz...
manx..it is a tiring day
very tired week..
think its gonna be more tiring...
not allow to stop for a moment..
to catch my breath...
haiz..
my head is going buz...
ah!!!
cannot take it anymore!!!
wanna get out!!
get out of life...manx!!
wish that now is like not holiday..
too much time to think..
manx!!
wanna talk and talk...
dun feel like training anymore...
dun feel like doing anything...
really need a break from everything right now...
alright...
manx...shall end here...
nth to say..
you seem to get over this more easily..
dunno la!!
i am stuck!!
BB!!!
2c1 2003 rox!!

7:37 AM

hey...
not say i wan you be perfect..
that is like wad u should give me right??
today's training..
is very crappy...
train=nv train...
yuan ling nv come!!
stead came!!
yay!!!
love ya!!!0
haha...manx!!
you know wad??
yu qi got the say hi face!!
i just keep wanting to say hi to her!!
haha..manx...
then today had cup noodles for lunch..
then stayed in school until 12...
to wait for sam...
stayed with jan eliz and audrey..
i kept call eliz...lizard!!
wa...manx!!
alright...
then we talked about how everybody looked like
when we first met...
haha...we kept laughing at pple!!
so bad..
then we ate the pooh biscuit...
haha..alright...eat them all!!
having tuition later!!
manx!!!
wanna get out!!
ah!!!
manx...
wanna change my bat rubber!!
ah!!
wanna train!!
third week ba...
next week almost everyday got lessons!!
going town with von i think...
ya...
tq get well soon ok?? =)
ya...shall end here....=)
anw wanna let you know something...

i have decided to wait for you...
until you finish your things*
dunno whether your love will last till then...
but my love for you will...

alright...
2c1 2003 ROX MY LIFE!!

10:56 PM

everything ended...
manx..
i knew it will end one day...
i nv expect it to be today..
nv expect it to be a friday AGAIN..
haiz...5 months and 14 days...
ended...
alright..
depressed..
stuffing all the food at home in to my stomach..
haiz..
stead and yuan ling(jie)
coming for training tml!!
yay!!
i wanna talk to stead!!
love ya!!
hehe...alright...
was talking to von just now...
then my father was like...
papa:ah yo!! y you cry!! dun cry la!!
me:ok...ya...(as usual)
papa:ok..dun talk too long on the phone..
which towel is dirty???(huh???!!!)
me:erm this one....(huh??!!huh??!!)
continue to talk to von....
suddenly papa walk in...
papa:you haven bathe yet...just come home!!
you better put down the phone now...
i wanna talk to you..
me:(shivering...)thinking...DIE LE!!! HE IS GOING TO SCOLD ME!!
papa:wad happened?? again is it?? that time you already cry
say wanna go out with tq for awhile wad...now again??
dun tell me you going out again ok?? you must now use every single
second to study...you know my office ah...today i quarell with ss...
she very irritating!! WA!!
me:ok..i going to bathe soon...talk to my friend for 5 mins ok?? please!!
papa:AH!! ok la...you better go bathe before dinner...
haha...my father is so cute!!!
haha...manx!! he rox!!
then i talked to von..
was late for dinner...
ask for punishment...
drank 2 BIG bowls of soup...
but the soup was so nice!
haha...wad kind of punishment is this???
haha...anw alright..
trying to cheer up myself now...alright
thankz to all my friends and STEAD!! and
YUANLING!!
going kl soon!!
looking forward to it!!
wanna get out of this place!!
ok...
everybody take care ok??
2c1 2003 ROX!!!

5:22 AM

Y am i crying for you again??
how many times
i had told myself not to drop a tear for you??
cant i have a night
that i dun cry myself to sleep??
haiz..y??
think i know y...
but do you ever care??
all you wanna know is that
how much i care for you...
compare with the others..
but you really care about me??
i hope you do...
you were very nice...
but y you changed so much??
the first time i met you...
you weren like that...
the time before you turned into a bung...
i guess you were even better...
haiz...
the problem keep repeating itself..
we nv solve them...
i was at fault too...
but do you need to use those words to insult me??
if it will make you feel better..
then go ahead...
i got nth to say...
really..haiz...
just wanna know how you really feel...
maybe i was nv good enough for you...
maybe...
haiz...sigh is all i can do...
i am really confused...
totally lost now...
onli thing i can do is to cry...
i am stupid right??
haiz...

2:56 AM

are promises meant to be broken??
or
are they suppose to be
locked up...
put in your heart...
so that no one can break it??
i am very confused...
y the promises given to me...
almost all are broken??? y??
and...
did i keep my promises??
i dunno...i hope so...
i have no more confident
to keep a promise...
lock it up...put in my heart...
so that no one mould break it for you...

10:41 PM

HEY!!
haha...manx...
all of a sudden...
i feel so excited about the kl trip!!!
haha...manx!!
i wanna go have fun!!
haha...then train and train..
then matches and matches!! YAY!!
haha...alright...
must ask me mama to do something to my phone!!!
will miss my friends and family!!
YAY!! haha...
manx..tml got CIP!!
haha...dunno wad to wear also...nvm...
erm..then think going to town ba...
to buy some stuff..and relax for awhile..=)
yesterday's training was like WA!!
so cool ok?
i can play forehand!!!
yay!!!
manx..then this morning wake up..
whole body ach!!
haha...manx...
very long nv go out with my family to eat le!!
then yesterday night...
we watch tv together!!
wa!!
so cool!!
haha...manx...
very moody this few days..
haha..dunno y...
so friends...
if i pissed you all off...
i am here to say sorry!!
really sorry!!!
i will just put aside all the unhappy things!!
haha..=) alright...shall end here!!!
take care every one!!
2c1 2003 rox!!!yay!!

10:35 PM